I don’t use this much any more but…

it’s now been a year since you left me, I still have so many questions, I will probably never get them answered. I miss you and the time (4 years) we shared together. You made me so happy, I loved buying you things and sending you cards and flowers and everything else. I hope you are happier and I hope your life is doing well. I am still picking up the pieces sadly, December has always been my favorite time of the year between the anticipation of seeing you after the holidays and spending some weeks together and then meeting up in the summer. I still think about it from time to time, I miss that one time in Stanley Park back in Westfield when we were walking around and you were taking pictures of me and of each other or going to the summer house and eating ice cream and just spending time with each other. It’s the one memory (out of many) that still make me smile. I wish I knew what I did wrong and I wish I could have been better for you but I hope you have found someone who can give you everything I could not. I will always love you and I miss you and the happiness that you gave me. A year later I have been doing things I have not done or didn’t think I could do. I have met heroes of mine and seen shows from my favorite bands and finding out about myself. You made me a better person and I thank you for that. I have a feeling you will probably never read this but I had to let it out. I hope the rest of your life is fantastic and I am glad that I was apart of it for 4 years. 

carlitos-guey:
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ugh

I have no idea what that trip back home did to me but it has completely fucked up my rhythm, I was doing great for so many months and it feels like I am back at stage one

Tags: thoughts

loloftheday:
“Positive Thoughts”

loloftheday:

Positive Thoughts

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psychotikos:

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runningoncoals:

I am literally both of them at the same time

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Thanks.

Thank you for absolutely tearing me apart, I know it is now almost a year and I should be over you but visiting my old town and my old neighborhood reopened wounds and broke me down. You have won, while you are living and being happy with someone else I am still picking up the pieces and trying to find out what I did wrong. It seems I will never know, I am sure I fucked up somewhere along the way which is why you decided to leave. I hope I pop into your mind now and then and I hope you miss what we had. Thanks for making my year a struggle with my emotions and who the fuck I am.

Tags: personal life

softblackboy:

People look so different once you don’t care about them anymore

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leslieannnn:

memes–memes:

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